I picked the right star to wish on!

I'm not one to truly believe that wishing gets you anywhere, but that doesn't mean I don't do it.

I can't believe I got what I wanted. How scary!

After heading to the Dr.'s last Monday to get a ..blood test...ick! I waited for what seemed FOREVER! Which turned out to only be 3 days...but 3 days too long! Anyways, I finally called the office because they were supposed to call me the next day, and of course they had my number wrong, so I told them to have the nurse call me back ASAP! I need to get on prenatals if I am, or find out what is wrong with me if I'm not! So FINALLY, nurse calls me and says "So, you want to know the results of the pregnancy test, right?" ....yes, that would be the idea.... "it was POSOTIVE." and my mouth hangs open.... "uhhh, alright."

Nurse, knowing that I'm being a bit quiet, says one more time, "Soo, it was posotive, ok?"

"umm, yea, ok, bye." CLICK*

I honestly WAS NOT expecting that I would actually be preggo, I thought, "hey, it's possible, but it's probably something else." So I was fully waiting to hear a "negative" and then I could make a Dr's appt to find out what's really wrong.

Uhhh, but no, there is a little cluster of cells growing inside of me that we like to refer to as a "fetus".

YEAY FOR FETUS'!!!

But wait....Brayden now makes too much to get any state assistance, so we are now going to be paying for our food and medical..which means, I'm gonna be paying for this Fetus! I hate that when you finally get back on your feet they punish you by taking away any help...lame system!

So, I am horribly scared, and overwhelmingly excited for this new addition to our family!

HOPE IT'S A GIRL!!!

Maximus

Yes please, may I have another?

I love this boy, he loves to get right in my face and smile until I laugh, and then he starts laughing too. I LOVE it!

He makes me want uno mas.

Secretly Praying

....That I'm pregnant.

I think I might be ready for another beast. I am "late" about 2 weeks, but with two FALSE tests, could I still be? I'm hoping, yes.

I'm sure there will be those who think I'm just bored and don't know what I'm talking about....true, I am slightly bored sitting at home all day, but I don't really want to add more sleepless nights into the equation unless it's more than just "being bored." Brayden is excited for our little "maybe", and of course I am too. But if I'm not "P", oh well, it'll happen when it happens.

I am concerned, then, of my constant tinkling. What is causing me to sprint to the bathroom every 30 minutes? I wake up about 3x's a night!! (just to tinkle ). I do not drink more than normal, which is generally MAYBE, 2 glasses of anything per day...bad, I know. So, why the constant flow? I'm stumped. Not to mention the crazy emotions!

Pretty sure I started crying while I watched Maury the other day. I never realized just how sad it is that those poor people actually LIVE like that normally! And those poor babies! Not knowing who their "Baby Daddy" is?! SAD!!!!! Plus the overwhelming LOVE I feel for my hubby lately. He is amazing, but I'm almost positive he's done nothing major to make this happen, just I have come to realize how much I appreciate him. But then, of course, if he says/does something I don't agree with, I get all grumpy and pouty and say he doesn't love me.

Ummmm....what the heck?! Maybe I'm about to "start", but I like to think I'm not that unstable regularly, even when it's "that time"

Don't worry, I'll let you know how it goes either way....