The change

I used to see road blocks everywhere I turned
What I see now are lessons I could have learned
Life seemed so empty, only filled with abuse
Pulled my rope so long I had my head in a noose
But I cut myself free and I finally walked away
-I'm so thankful the Lord blessed me with another day-
How could a soul as dark and empty as mine
Be pieced back together and learn how to shine?
I had to let go of every secret I tried so hard to hide
And make peace with my wounded spirit inside
The hardest part of healing was letting people love me
And realizing I needed help from those standing above me
Now when I think of leaving I fall to my knees and pray
Peace and calmness surrounds me and I know it's okay
Who would have thought, a soul as tattered and torn as mine
Could call herself a Daughter of God and let her light shine.
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life's a journey, and we all make mistakes
Always frustrated by life and how long it takes-
Don't worry, it's never too far no matter how far you stray
There's someone who loves you who's provided a way
It doesn't take much, just a simple change of heart
And He'll protect you from the advesary- every fiery dart.

April snow-showers?

So, for everyone who has a window, you have seen the snow falling outside today. I had to get a few pictures of it, and after going outside for further inspection, I realized that apparently it was in hail shape- looking like dip-n-dots ice cream. So, here are a few pictures I got. Maddy of course had to go and play in it and point out that her jeep was covered in "balls of snow".

I don't know about you, but snow/hail storms in April make me realize just how true the statement "we are living in the latter days" really is. haha...I love it!

Fri-yea!

This morning was amazing. I got to babysit at the Burleson's and watch Lydia, Calvin, and Roxy! Tami has a kitty named Speckles, and holy poo, I kid you not, this cat has it's ears peirced! I should have brought my camera, but yea, it was amazing! It had the same earings in as I did....odd, but funny. Plus they had shaved it a couple days earlier cause it was sick or something- so it looked like a calico lion with fluffy feet and a little puffel at the end of her tail. I love that cat now.
Besides that, nothing new really- just thought it was time for an update. Life has been good, I got a few more letters from Race this week, one today, which made me day that much better. I love that kid with all my heart- it will be nearly four years since I've seen him by the time he gets home...and even still, I know I love him- I don't have to see him to remember how I feel about him. I love it- he is everything a mom could wish for for her daughter! I think my mom would agree to that, she is the one that would bring him up speratically- pointing out that "there's always Race." Thanks mom. =]
Alright, well, it's time for work! yeay! Get to close and get home around 10pm, only to go back to work at 10:30am tomorrow. Woohoo.....
-Kaylee

Claws & Paws!

Alright, so today I had me a little adventure! I met up with my friend Marlys, and she took me to the animal shelter in Quincy to see the new puppies they got in. I'm not sure exactly what they are, but their mom is a basset hound, and a couple look like courgie or lab mixes. I took my camera along, of course, so here are a few pics of the little puppies...my favorite was the little black and white one- it had the body of a basset hound- with those little stubby legs and longer body- sooo cute!



Then we ventured into the adult dog area...... first is the mommy!! Come on, tell me her babies arn't gonna be cute!




Alright.....a couple other ones...


And there you have it!!! If you want to adopt one of these loverly animals, contact the Claws and Paws shelter in Quincy!!! =]

Piano!

Alright, so this is my new piano!!



Definably not too much space left in my room....but I don't mind!!!

School

I'm writing this at school today, I have an hour and a half break before my next class. Most people would refer to this break as "lunch, but since I'm broke this is "study time" for me. My first class is Math, which is pretty cool, I get to just sit in the room and do work at my own pace- which means that I could finish earlier than usual. Right, then English- which is highly entertaining. My teacher is unique, he has a very colorful vocabularly. And lastly (the class I'm waiting for) Lifetime Wellness.
This class is probably not the most put-together, but we get to work out twice a week, so whatever. I never know when anything is actually due in that class-it changes nearly every day- and most assingments are not too well talked about. But apparently everything we do is "extremely easy", at least that's what the class line tells me. I do enjoy going to school though, so I can't really complain about getting an education.
Besides that, nothing really new has been going on. Oh wait, I did actually buy a piano the other day. I was out yard saleing with Morgan and I came across this beauty, and I knew right then that I had to have it. So my loverly boss, loyd Burleson, got a few guys together and we hauled it to the house. I now have about 2ft of free space in my room, but I don't mind. Having a piano is well worth the loss of space and money- which cost me $300. I'm very pleased with myself on my purchase. I think I might get some pictures up soon for everyone to see. =] For now I think I better get to studying!

catching up!

Alright, so Saturday March 22nd was the Canal Caper. We did the walkers, cause we are most definably NOT runners! So in order of the picture our places went Anna (5th) Marlys (6th) Kristin (3rd-*cheater!) Bev (????) Me (4th *should have been 3rd!) It was actually really fun and it went by fast!

Ok, something else that happened- the other day I got a package from Race for my birthday! He sent me a CD he burned for me with "missionary appropriate" music. I listen to it at night and it puts me to sleep it's so soothing. He also sent me a tape recording of him talking to me! It was the best thing ever!!! So of course I went to the place I hate (wal-mart) and bought myself a handy-dandy voice recorder so I could send him one back. I learned that apparently instead of things getting cheaper as they go out of date, they get more expensive. I saw these cd players for 9.99 right next to this old fashioned tape recorder that I had to pay $22 for!!!! But I wasn't going to argue, it was a must that I get it...so I payed for the over-priced wal-mart crud anyways. I think Race will appreciate it, so I really can't complain. Oh, the joys of writing a missionary! =]

Lastly, my birthday is comming up on the 1st. I don't think there is any plans, but I'm pretty sure my sister will be here..so once again, I can't complain. My mom's b-day is the 31st of this month, so maybe we'll do something together. I really hope I get something for her that she likes. I feel a little stressed trying to think of a gift I can give her to show her how much I appreciate all she's done for me; and just generally that I love her! She is such a difficult woman to buy things for! haha. But I have something in mind, so I really hope she likes it! Oh, and one other thing Race sent me in my package.......

I told him we didn't have any pictures of us together- so he sent me this picture with a border around it that says "love". =] I love it! He never ceases to crack me up! Just thought I'd share this sweetness with anyone who cares! Have a great day! I know I will!!

Today, today

It feels like everyday that I'm here I slip a little farther and farther away from where I want to be. My goals are still the same, but every single day I get caught up in some wasteful event that leaves me feeling empty inside by the time I'm kneeling down to pray at night. I hate to blame anyone or anything...but truthfully I find that living in a place that is full of people I have bad memories with is somewhat damaging to my progress. I know no matter what I can do whatever I want with my life, but right now the options are slim pickins. I find myself getting bored sitting around the house, so I agree to hang out with "old friends"- I don't do anything "wrong" but just being around those type of people kind of brings me down anyways. I really truthfully feel like I've regressed quite a bit in the last month or so. I don't like it. I really need good uplifting things to fill my time with. Filling my time with people and places that don't promote the spirit is seriously damaging my spirit I think, and I don't want to head back down any paths I've been before. I hate that I don't have any friends around here that are LDS that I can spend time with- I mean, there's always the LDS boys that are nice, but I seriously do not want to date anyone! And it's sweet and all for them to want to hang out with me, but I need a girl-friend my age that can help me stay on track right now. I love my mom, I know she's there for me- I love my sister, and I know she will talk to me whenever I need it too...but it's just not the same. I started out so strong when I came back to Ephrata, I could give up anything if it's what was asked of me...but now I'm thinking to myself..."well, it can't hurt THAT bad"- which scares me, cause I know where that thinking will lead me. I'm depressed over all of this, at my choices, and just mainly at where I'm at. I'm happy with were I'm at "in life" but physically speaking- I hate Ephrata. I have "rekindled" old friendships that possibly I should have left dead...and all out of boredom. It's a time waster for me for now, but already I'm noticing that I feel obligated to hang out with one person or another more than I really wanted to. That first step was the most important step, and I see now that maybe I need to back track a few steps now to get me going in the right direction. I feel bad that just as I have decided to start seeing old friends again, I'm cutting it off again so quickly- I feel like a horrible person, always going back and forth and playing with people's feelings. It was stupid of me, I know this- now I just want someone to help me stay away from those darker areas in my life. Right now it's not so bad because I can say no to whatever they offer me and think nothing of it- but how long will that last? If I put myself around it enough I know there will be a point that I start to think "maybe just once"..or whatever thought satan knows I will listen to at the time. So, I guess right now I honestly need to sit down and think about a few things in my life and make a final decision on what Kaylee wants the final outcome to be when it's all said and done. 'Cause right now, I don't think I would be so comfortable standing before God- and that is something that I need to think about long and hard. I pray that I can do this the right way and find myself holding tight to the iron rod, no matter what satan throws in my path.

Hello, my name is:

Apparently this where I'm supposed to "blog". Who invented "blogging" seriously? I actually have no idea what it means...but I'm doing it now. Right now. So, to start off, My name is Kaylee Black. I live at home with my mom while I'm attending Big Bend Community College; and I work at the delicious Time Out Pizza. Life doesn't get much better than this. I have a boyfriend named Race who's on a mission in Illinois- he's pretty much the greatest thing since chocolate! I will be heading down to Arizona next semester to start college down there, get all settled in before Race gets home in April of '09. I'm pretty excited to say the least! I have an awesome family who loves me, and I love them each in their own way. I love going to church, especially teaching the Sunbeams! I'm pretty dang happy with my life right now.... I hope it stays heading in this direction- so we'll see how things go!!