Those who know me

Know that I keep quiet when there's nothing to be said. I don't mean to say that I don't talk often, or anything like that; I mean to say that when my life has nothing going on, I tend to keep to myself.

It's been nine months since my last post on here, and honestly, not too many exciting things have happened to me since then. I moved to Spokane, had a boyfriend move up here for me, been working two jobs, and still can't seem to get myself to go to college. But something changed last week, and I figured it was time for a new post. Last week Brayden decided to move to Arizona, for a handful of reason, including the fact that he was just plain home-sick for family. Now, this is in no way a put-down toward him, or me even saying that us being together was ever a mistake. I just know that Brayden moving here in the first place wasn't too smart. He is so young, and I knew he needed time to find himself before he made such a life-changing decision, but being so young, of course he pulled a Kaylee, and he came here on raw emotion. It never felt too good for him to be here, even though I absolutly love the poo out of him and loved every moment of being around him... still, I knew it would come to an end. So as things went on, I of course was thinking about marriage, but it seems it was too soon for Brayden. I think the thought of being married right now helped him realize just how young he is, which is great. I'm quite thankful that he come to this realization before he actually married me and then freaked out and did something stupid. So now he's in Arizona with his brother and he wants to get himself together before he takes that next step. Irionically, that's quite a mature move on his part. =]

So my first instinct when he left was to immediatly follow to be closer to him, cause I figured the least I could do was move somewhere for him the way he did for me. But no, that would be quite immature on my part. So I've decided that I need to get Kaylee all straight away right now, so when Brayden is straight away we can be heading in the same direction finally. My plans are soft-of unsure at this point, but I do have two stable plans to work around. One is that I will be staying in Spokane close to MY family, and the second is, I will be attending Paul Mitchell the school downtown as well. It's a 15month program, but there is the freedom to transfer within the school after the first two months. I considered moving to Phoenix to go to the Paul Mitchell there and of course be 2 1/2 hrs closer to Brayden, but the truth is that he made his dicision, and he chose to move a couple hundred miles away. So I think for now he needs to know how it feels to make big choices like that and not have it sugar-coated by having his girlfriend follow him and make it easier on him. I love him more than anything, and I hope one day we do get married and we are both where we need to be in life; no more emotion driven dicision. 

So that's all I got for now. I guess I better keep this updated now....